a perfect date

 

May 11 2024

dinner at a cosy ramen restaurant

kings size bed

catching the free to air tv film
Johnny English

tram to the beach 1230am

southern lights aurora

community around the world

marvel

heatpack

sleep

Truth

An epoch eclisped

 Servered & into freedom learning to breathe a new air,  in her 40s,  she stood at the end of her street.  Bells,  birds,  tyres on bitumen. Listening.  Just listening. 

With doors closed behind , the unlocking of alternate dimensions turns once more.  

Epilogue : home is a myth

It's a wrap

1.5months of holidays draws to a close

travels completed: singapore, perth, canberra
seminars attended in security, medicine, floral care, philosophy, management
central business districts roamed
young mums visited x3
moved house
set up
started calligraphy
yet to use wax seals
key change in song development, wip
Melbourne international film festival
more hair modelling

quokka from rottnest island!

all in all
a productive time

still not fit

outside personal life
2 engagements
2 pending weddings this year


phase 3 of life.
starts in 3 days.

......>

full circle

end of an era for sure.
closure at its best

met my bestie upon a full moon over pancakes
ten years on
finished up the chapter upon a full moon at grossi (of which the food was fantastical!)

peculiar, as once i walked below this restaurant as a student and thought wow so fancy , who would eat in there!  and now i sit upstairs staring out, a strange feeling, plus some wonder as my high school mate is the dessert chef, creating incredible inventions.

food with a story + presentation = ART!

upon leaving they gave us a gift, how nice.

strolling past the Royal Exhibition to a free ride home

it sealed up the chapter on uni life were i once had exams

no more.

stage adult entered

engagement begins

what is this nonsense?

maturity

:P

berkeley
but a dream

to look back and verbalise it feels a lie,
so far and distant

breathless

memory captured in a cloud

regrets

pretty sure i dont have any
living life sharply with full force as it comes

digging around room, clearing about decades of papers, admin, life, belongings

comes across berkeley
wow.
what a time.

"...if you wrote 5-10 more pages it can be published. I'll be happy to help with the process" - Professor

clearly i didnt take that on board and decided the grand canyon was way more worth organising, and only after i came back from the US , did i realise she sent yet another email wanting to submit my paper into a conference. 2011. well. i'm no longer cutting edge. Professor in Cinematic Arts and Gaming will definitely have to be shelved permanently.

Bye bye academia.

It wouldn't have been useful anyway. Not a life that is shared with the majority. =.="

I guess I have settled.
lol.

and that's not a bad thing?

><"

where do you see yourself in 10 years?

lewl this captures it pretty well ^^
although i want more comfortable chairs


so this was actually a draft of mine dated 2012.
four years have gone by ..it's pretty accurate lol

oh saturdays....

pulling yourself out of bed to actually face the sunshine!

as august draws to a close there is hope.
probably haven't been faced with such a hectic jam packed month in a very very long time

1 engagement
2 weddings
2 interstate trips
5 interviews (oh which i didn't get my dream job *sob*)
2 friends returning from far away places
1 surprise b'day party
+ who knows how many assignments left. totally lost count

all such hecticness whilst my best friend was overseas and so so far away.
i dont think i could live without you and aug has really tested that. ugh.

time is limited.
should hit the books.

december. i'm counting on you :P

phasing.

*source*

drifting.

i am so unwell.

another day drifts by without you by my side

bottom line:

this is not love 

this is the curse of selfishness.

fooling oneself to breath the lie that you cannot live without them. 

fickle and frank 

a hell bound race

near perfection....

gotta say this probably is the 2nd best day of my life

though i did set it aside to start studying, but i truly did wake up  late, still processing the awesome party last night.

cleaned up a bit, friend came over to chillax, before movie Big Hero 6 with friends, and satisfying my friend chicken craving. To top that off the resturant actually played my fav genre.

image credit: *link*

Deep friend chicken + best friend + sis + heavy metal = cannot lose.

 but what really topped it off is partnership in ministry and life with DD

going to great lengths for friends.

precision timing.

love.

childhood influences

just another exam study break, but instead of ranting here is an insightful post for you readers...if there are readers out there hahha

where i probably got my characteristics/traits/life lessons from_

*pic source*

Tintin:
adventurer
logical thinker
wanting results and obtaining them via problem solving step by step
curiosity
risk taking/spontaneous

*source*

The Animals of Farthing Wood
death is real

*source*

Wolverine:
you can physically heal but emotional scarring runs deep
truly troublesome if not dealt with

Richie my vis com teacher
thinking outside the square
creativity encouraged

Mr. Webster my english teacher
honesty
rethink and question behaviour/norms
group think

Jesus
teacher, Lord, saviour
undeserved favour, grace, forgiveness

a lost dream...

clearing out my room and finding stuff from primary school still in it.

i guess i did have a dream job back in the day lol

lewl these were the days

:P

just one of those days....

*link*

hmm.. havent posted a decent thought post for a while .

so life is somewhere between the above and below visual representations

*link*

the decisions to make for direction, purpose, friendships are all rather bubbly and suffocating,
only because they are heavy loaded with thoughts, experience, and consequences

on the other hand, there is ample amounts of energy buzzing within me that just wants
and somewhat is running with flow, making the most of every opportunity.

my weakness : risk-taker

i am willing to put aside a stable career and return to studies in the most unstable of climates to ...
take a risk
to answer the questions a) do i want to pursue career dev or health.
a fork in the road
only temporary
and at that
not important
from an eternal perspective

Of late I have come to ponder the questions of "what works"

that can be thrown at students, studies, partners, marriage, church, culture, tradition, law

"what works?"  go with that they say.

hmmmmm.. every person is different and what works will require a rather objective vision, value , truth to bring it all back to reality.

often i do wish to discuss open ended questions such as these.
and one word comes to mind

daniel.

for that i am annoyed at myself.

 

ohla 2014!!!!

what an incredible year it has been.
I dare say, I have not learnt as much as I have in my entire life than that of what was compressed into the last year alone. (hmmm bad grammar) 

it felt like this...

*source*

experiences that made it crazy good and crazy bad , and to name a few

- roadtrip, driving friends to sydney and back
- conquered another year of full time work
- got promoted to manager
- conflict resolution
- incidents with police
- car crash
- new glasses bye bye ferrero rocher branded red frames 
- loosing a friend
- sent frank for an ultrasonic bath + clean ^^"
- party party partiessssss til the dawn
- look like i have lost weight =/
- still stuck in the middle of psalms ><
- cut my hair short for the last time
- made new friends

so each year a bit of reflecting and also a forecast....

*source*

2014

ironic turns and twists

So go live and tread wisely

superhuman

i live in so many alternative and multiple universes in my head,
 it is not funny. 

*source*

since 1998 that critical event in childhood of being ripped from friends, relocation, social isolation, no such thing as internet, has caused my brain to consistently  ask the question "what if 'x' happened, what will that result in" and "if 'x' didn't happen, what will be the result".

- planning
- calculative
- observant 
- profiling 

So you can imagine the INFINITE possibilities of conversations turns, people met, active food choice, exercise choice, uni course choice, travel choice, and ALL the deviations life can take....

could make your mind explode.

not mine.

oddly enough.

whilst that is all running, equivalent to say 100 dvds playing at the same time.I still manage to be so easily satisfied, and enjoy the simple things. treasures it. 

happy go lucky


deduction: my super power . infinite energy =P

reflecting | grad roles | transcripts

it's that time of year that penultimate kids enter for grad roles

*pic source*

so in the end my top 5 were....

UC Berkeley - History of Film A+, Film Genre Anime A., Film Genre Musicals & Noir A

Uni Melb_
Design Communications 89
God and the Natural Science 85
Landscape Graphics 84
Game Studies 82
Developmental Psych/Research Methods 3/Optics 81


they say do what you are good at and what you enjoy

so i guess film ranks top. [am doing nothing about it]
then design [still not doing anything about it, having looked at uni graphics course fee $_$, decided not to pursue]
philosophy [super interesting -> no job]
pysch [heck no]
optom [bleh]


employment consulting = win

=]

wrap up 2012

*source*

a zillion mistakes later, 

it turned out good =]

 where to begin! what an awesome journey_

.took course How-to-be-a-girlfriend-101 from instructor DD

*ahem* failed miserably, never graduated. oops><"

.took course New Testament from Moore College

was a great in depth reading of the Gospel of Mark, which was

consolidated once more in Christianity Explored course

for seven weeknights

. met Australia's only MARVEL comic book artist ^^ keke. David Yardin. And he sketched a pic for me

.moved out (woohoo)

.joined radio once more Unscriptured SYN 90.7FM every saturday morning

of deeply fun and varied conservations between people of faiths and non-faiths

.attempted more chords on the guitar! FFFFFFFF =P

.did one term of symphonic wind band. i love you frank!  

.attempted to Melbourne shuffle >.>
.visited the ballet x 3!!

.exercised self-discipline from july onwards lewl. late bloomer of social norms =P

.received a car
. lost a dimple
.grew three sunspots =.="

.grew my hair

.watched an average of 1 movie a week-ish

.wore a dress x4   0_0

.started 3 words

ends with a bunch o' 3 words

" BE! 

...joyful in hope, 

patient in affliction, 

faithful in prayer"

Romans 12:12 



[2013 agenda - focus & fade ]

May.. shall be picture posts!

Welcome to my World =]

*ahem*

if you don't know me, according to those around me, I am labeled as the following in no particular order:

12 year old boy - Victor
dork - James
loser - Monica
eccentric - Jason
friendly - high school mates
the safe + 1, that would get along with anyone - Michael
weirdo - Ling/Sara
creative - Vincent

the oracle - JeeWee (lewl)

everyone's 6-degree of separation - Dennis

douchebagette - Frank

ain't ya ever down girl? - Joey

crazy - DD

bipolar - Clay

energetic - Daniel T

happy-go-lucky - Ihraz

anime character - Kyla/Fiona

black hole - Grace

gleeful - Daryl

button-basher - Sam

rude - David

autistic - D

emotional incompetent - V ...grr

active- Tim

hopeless - Paul

hmm..now that I think about it, those aren't exactly positive things >.> damn

but i beg to differ.

my world is quite different though to your average twenty-something-year old female.
crazy highs, and incredibly depressing sudden lows, that do disappear as soon as the next shiny object catches my eye >.> how random. since my health care card expires i might as well visit a psychologist and see what they do for a living lewl.
But i reckon the above visual captures it. amongst the uncanny coincidences/unexpected encounters that flood by weeks, days, minutes, there is an eerie peace, a quite confidence, a blessed assurance, amongst the mess of 'self'.

suspensefully animated =P
sustained at a fragile odd vector

on the side_

contemplating study : audiology, counselling
work: HR, clinical

property: own...rent..move out?

a premature question to which I don't have an adequate answer:
tell me, seriously. 

convince me,

what is the point of a female going to bible college?

because I personally don't see the significance of it =P
sure it could be helpful, useful,

by in my puny mind, I haven't got a winning reason,

as it is not necessary