headdesk

ugh. i can't believe it took me all this time to realise
the greater your heart, the greater your capacity to love,
but also the greater you will feel pain.

surely i read this before and acknowledged this,
but it didn't click.  why? possibly because it wasn't  a lived experience.

word vomit_
The larger your heart is, the more you love
but with it the greater the pain. You pray that 
you have the mind to endure this and the humbleness to let go. 

from the inside out, if you think you are in pain,
think of the love God showed to the world and the rip in the relationship
when the world did away with Him.
excruciating pain.
that left
one solution
the cross.

im not reduced to tears,
ive been brought to my knees.